Friday, February 27, 2009

Love is not irritable, day 6

Today's dare required you to look at your life and figure out how to marginalize your stressors and react in love to tough circumstances.

It talks about how selfishness can take other forms, such as: lust, bitterness, greed, and pride. Out of this list of 4, I know that I have an issue with bitterness. I hold onto things and let them leak out when the smallest thing sets it off. I sit and I stew. I can hold onto things for days before either finding a way to let it go or go off. Right now I know that most of my emotions stem from my struggle to find a job. I just never thought I would have a problem finding a job in education. I feel helpless and I know I could do more about my situation. I have to make filling out job applications a number one priority. Since starting the Love Dare, I have tried to not hold onto things if they are not important. The most recent outburst has been in response to Aaron saying something about me needing to work out. He doesn't think it is fair that he is trying and I am not doing anything. I know that I need to be losing some weight and I have, but only because I have cut back what I eat. (Portion size, eating only when hungry, cutting back on soda) Aaron has tried different tactics to get me motivated and I have not responded to any of them. It finally came to a head the other day. Ultimately, we came to an understanding and now I just need to start doing some sort of exercise each day.

Things I can do to help my stress:
1. Wake up at a more "normal" time and go to bed at a decent time.
2. Getting exercise.
3. Prioritize and stick to it.

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